Mental Health.

The day before i had a fever, i cried a lot. Too much, if i could say. Too much in mind, and i lost. I couldnt thinking of any motivation words anymore. All i need is if Allah could send me someone that can talk or do whatsoever to wake me up, from all this horrible feeling and thought. However, there is no one. I know, He want me to rely on Him.

Today, is the third day, i took leave from intern. Haha, when i look back, those two days were a very long long longgg journey for me, even if you could just say a fever. For me, its not just a fever, but to get remove all the sins that i have done. Now, my mental is more at ease. What i could say is, i had a fever not because of my physical health but because of my mental health. All i need is time to clean up all the mess and rubbish inside my head.

First, i clean up all unworthy exo's videos in my lappy. You know what, it does make me feel at ease. All those duniawi, i want to get remove all of them long time ago, but i dont have courage to do so. Well, let us see, what kind of rubbish inside my head and lappy that i will remove and delete. Haha. Just wait and see.

I want to have a better life. A better future. And of course a healthy mind and heart. May Allah lead me to the right path. I trust Him with all my heart.